I don't think you can actually ever answer that question! There is no one word that describes Mental Illness. It's a combination of so many different emotions, that all just turn into one big messy mix inside your head. You question everything, you don't ever see the positives in life, you can't see the happiness thats right in front of you, you worry about everything, you can't understand your own emotions. It's just so incredibly hard being inside your own head!
Every persons symptoms and signs and triggers are all different. There is no right or wrong way to feel, and being able to understand these different emotions, you are then able to fight yourself, and create a better understanding of your behaviour ready for change.
Mental Health, stops you from performing simple daily tasks, your inability to see the positives, feeling anxious and stressed all the time, not being able to sleep properly, and living with low self esteem! Your confidence is at rock bottom, and you behave erratically when at your lowest.
You can feel embarrassed when trying to express yourself, ashamed that you are not coping with daily life, and guilty that you feel your not doing everything you should be doing.
Its draining, tiring and soul destroying!
Mental Illness can show itself in so many different ways, a change in your behaviour, feeling sad, low concentration, insomnia, or obsessive behaviour, to name a few. Most of the time, we can't even see it for ourselves. We feel like it is others that are acting strangely, not understanding us and ignoring us.
I have felt all of the above for 15 years, and it truly was exhausting. I didn't have the strength to understand it, to fight it and seek out a recovery. I was always telling myself that this was the way my life was supposed to be, I wasn't good enough to be a better person, that I just needed to get through life the way I am and that was it.
I was chained to my negative limiting beliefs, and I definitely didn't have the energy to try and fight them, well actually at the time I didn't even know that they existed, it has only been since my recovery journey started that I was able to see them. The negative thoughts that I have been filling my head with, listening to and believing!
So if your feeling, understanding or believing any of what I have spoken about, then please use the website as much as you want to, look at all my downloads, and start your road to recovery!
If I can do it! YOU CAN TOO!